Way too Indecisive

Five miles makes you feel so good!

I love the feeling after a great workout. Today was my cardio-only day and I knew I wanted to run. The weather was rainy today though so I opted for the treadmill in the mini gym I go to sometimes when I don’t feel like driving to the real gym.

I had a bunch of treadmill workouts printed out and written down because lets face it, the treadmill can get pretty boring.

I found this workout on Julie’s blog and decided to give it a try. Since I am a little sore from yesterday’s workout, I figured starting off with walking would be a good idea.

I changed up the speeds and inclines a bit to my liking and ended up running from minute 45 to complete a full hour.

It was a great workout and time definitely flew by! I’d recommend it to anyone looking for a new treadmill routine.

After getting home, and chillin in my sweaty clothes waiting for my mother to come home, I got started on dinner.

We didn’t have much of a variety in the protein department but we had shrimp and decided to make a shrimp and broccoli pasta with sauce.

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I loved the pasta with the broccoli but honestly the shrimp was a little too fishy for my liking. I had to peel the shrimp before we cooked it and I’m convinced that’s why they tasted weird. There’s just something about peeling off little legs that completely freak me out.

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It was still a good meal, I ate it anyway.

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This morning I had another wake-up call around 5 am. Since my first class starts at 8 am and I commute, I have to leave an hour before hand.

I also don’t like to be rushed and I like to take my time getting ready so I’ve been waking up extra early. I am finally getting used to it though! Coffee helps.

Once it becomes a regular routine, it’s really not all that bad. The days when my class starts at 9:30 am, I either wake up at 5 and get a workout in, or I sleep in if I really need it; which has been a lot lately.

If you’re ever thinking about becoming an early riser for any reason, especially to workout, try it for a week or two and it will get easier. It takes time!

I didn’t take a picture of my breakfast this morning because it wasn’t all that interesting plus I was on a time crunch. I had cereal for lunch. How much more boring can I get? Sheesh Winking smile That was what my body was craving though so I gave it what it wanted!

 

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Once I was home from school I contemplated going to the gym right away or to go a little later.

I completely forgot that I had a Skype meeting with an academic advisor at UCF.

Now, if any of you have read my blog since I first started it, very early on I noted that I had transferred home FROM UCF this semester. You can read about it here.

You see the last line, “I can always transfer back to UCF next semester if I can’t stand it here, but right now this is where I am and I’ll take it one day at a time”?

Well um, I’m going back.

The school I’m at now isn’t all that bad, but I’m just not loving over it. The campus is alright, my classes are fine, but nothing is really good. I feel like I shouldn’t be here.

I knew I chose UCF in the first place for a reason. I loved the campus, loved my classes, and loved the school in general. However, my first year I went through a lot of tough times. Many unfortunate things happened to me that year, which I want to keep personal right now, but overall it just wasn’t a great year. I imagined my first year being amazing and absolutely loving college.

When I went up to UCF in the summer before fall of last year, I absolutely LOVED it. Everything about it was amazing and I never thought that I would ever want to leave. Well that was before all the unfortunate things happened to me.

I do have the option of staying where I’m at, finishing the year, then transferring to a totally different school the next. I also have the option of moving back to UCF in the spring and continuing my education there. The good thing is, I’m still technically enrolled so I will NOT have to re-apply. I just have to transfer my credits and loans over to the school.

When I think about if I should go back or if I should wait it out and go somewhere else, I just get a gut feeling that I should go back to UCF. I do miss it, and I don’t think I gave it enough of a chance. I do feel as if I should have stayed and tried it out again, instead of transferring home this fall, but you live and you learn. Obviously I learned that I shouldn’t just jump at any opportunities because of my feelings and wants at the moment.

The quote, “Don’t make promises when you’re happy, and don’t make decisions when you’re angry,” really relates to me now. When I decided to move back home for the year (or now going to be semester), I was angry and upset. I was upset that college wasn’t what I thought it would be that year, I was angry about the unfortunate things that happened to me throughout the year, and I was upset that the year wasn’t the same as when I first got to UCF in the summer.

I didn’t really know what to make of it and I kept thinking “what if”. What if next year is the same as this year? What if I hate it again and I’m stuck here? What if I want to go to another college? That “what if” gets me every time.

I want to go to a college where it is perfect for my major. My problem? I still don’t know what to major in. However, UCF seems to fit my general interests of what I will possibly major in. It doesn’t hurt that I have a good amount of friends up there either. I have a few of my best friends as well which is awesome.

I don’t know if I am making the right decision, again, but that’s what being young is for. Can you tell I am WAY TOO INDECISIVE? I need to learn how to make my own decisions and figure out for myself what is right and what is not. As of now, transferring back to UCF just feels right. That to me, is the most important.

I’m sorry this got SO wordy! I just had to get it off my chest and I thought what better way than to share it with my awesome blog readers Open-mouthed smile

 

Are you indecisive?

Do you go with your feelings or your thoughts?

Do you wake up early just to get a workout in or do it later on when you have the time?

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8 responses

  1. Hi girl! Loved reading this post and I completely feel for you. College is a completely stressful time in your life and there is so much pressure on figuring it out NOW. My boyfriend and friends go through this all the time and are never sure if they know what they want to do and where to go next. Just remember how young we are. We have our whole lives to figure it out and I am confident you will. So what if you have to change colleges a couple of times? That is you experiencing life and you should be proud to have as much experience as possible!

  2. I’m usually indecisive too! It took me 4 years of University before I decided I wanted to go to teacher’s college! Sometimes it takes time and I think you just have to be patient. The time will come when it will just “click” and you will know exactly what you want to do! Definitely go with your feelings!

  3. I just found your blog through HRG and I love it!

    I can’t believe you get up at 5am sometimes to workout!! That’s awesome!!

    For the days when I don’t have my 8am classes, I workout in the morning. And right now, I’m trying to figure out what to do about the two days I do have 8ams. Do I workout at the crack o’ or sleep in and call it a rest day?!

    • Thank you!! I have an 8 am class twice a day also and I also commute so I do not workout beforehand. I already wake up at 5:30 so if I wanted to workout I’d have to wake up at 4am, I am NOT down for that! haha so I usually just go later in the day when I’m out of school.

  4. Hey girl. I know how hard going to college and then transferring can be since I’ve also been through it. Like you, I though college would be a super awesome amazing experience, and I felt like something was wrong with me because I just wasn’t having a good time. As you know from my blog, my terrible time at college led to my eating disorder. I’ve since transferred to a college I love and that both supports my health and learning. UCF is a huge school, so really, no matter what you decide to major in, you’ll have options there. Like you, when I was deciding to transfer, I was nervous that I would hate my new school. I thought that maybe I just wasn’t cut out for college. I expressed this concern to my therapist and he basically said “so what.” “So what if you don’t like your new college?” “Take some time off or transfer to a different college.” I was like…oh…I guess you’re right. It really put things in perspective. At the college I’m at now, most people don’t even declare their major until the END of their sophomore year! You are seriously right on track with where you should be. Good luck with these big decisions and transitions :)

    • Thank you SO much for this comment!!! Seriously that helps me a lot :) I agree though, I went through some tough times there the first year but I’m willing to give it another chance, which is what I’m aiming to do. You are awesome!! Thank you!

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